Step by step

I find myself planning. Planing for the next job, planning for my career, wedding, baby………so many things …I got caught up in the middle. I used to write to keep my thoughts in order and this is what the blog will be.  A sort of order in my mind. It will give me the responsability of following through with all my plans and making them come true…

But let’s start at the beginnig. I am in the proccess of taking Step 1 - medical examination. I payed - just need to schedule and take it. And study. Study and do as many tests as possible.  That has a deadline- so I am good there. 

My future husband and I are both on visas and we are getting them extended- that kept me awake for a couple of weeks- without the visas, big part of the plans would end - abrubtly and painfully, since back home there is no home…Luckily we got some news this week and I slept for 2 days almost . Looks like we’re going to be in Florida for the summer.:)

The wedding- we haven’t planned yet. We will have to deal with that when we go back home. It will probably be big, and I won’t know maybe half of the guests, but we’ll have our friends, old friends and friends we have made from all over the world. I buy a wedding magazine every now and than, I have picked the theme but it is as far as I would go right now. We have seen some restaurants before we came, talked to some photo studios, cake manufacturers, flower shops, so when we have a date, I’ll call everybody and book them- see- plans )

The baby - well, the truth about babies is that, even if we are not married yet, we have been trying.  We have been trying hard ))) for over a year now with no luck. We only started when my endocrinologist gave me the bad news: polycystic ovary syndrome- no. 1 reason for infertility. At this point it doesn’t matter which comes first- marrige or baby. 

There is one more reason why I wanted to blog. I am trying to lose some weight. 60 pounds of extra weight to be more exact. 60 pounds that are in the way between me and my plans. Between me having a beautiful wedding dress and especcialy in the way of me getting pregnant.  

On this journey I have with me my wonderful husband to be, who is my biggest supporter, my  best friend, the love of my life, Ciprian, who I am very thankful for putting up with me for 3 years now and who, for reasons I do not understand, loves me more everyday.