For the first time in a long time, I feel like I did when I first started this journey! Excited, ready, unstressed…
Maybe I needed a little time away to get back into the groove. When I first started last summer, I had no idea of what I could accomplish. I only knew that if I ate better and worked out, I would surely improve not only my physical appearance but also my mental well-being too. I had no expectations beyond that. Sure I had goals that I wanted to reach but I didn’t have a time frame and as long as I was seeing any results, I felt no disappointment. But then I started getting major results. It was terrific, it was motivational, it was exciting. It made me want more and want it “now”. It motivated me to push myself to the limit. Well as we all know, no one can sustain that kind of intensity indefinitely. I started feeling terrible when I thought “I” wasn’t loosing weight fast enough. I remember being somewhat disappointed after completing a round of P90X because I only lost 17 pounds… SEVENTEEN POUNDS!!! How could I be upset with that?????!!! This negative thought process continued through my round of Chalean Extreme which got me even closer to my goal. How could I be unhappy with my results if I was getting thinner and in better shape???
I think that I have spent TOO MUCH time expecting certain things. Unrealistic things! And then have been disappointed when I can’t achieve those things immediately. I haven’t spent enough time being proud of what I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED! Sure I want more and it will happen if I let go of my preconceived notions and instead just keep on going!
Well now after having been gone (although not completely), I am starting to see it the way I did in the beginning. I am just going to continue to try my best and see where that leads me!
And the weirdest part is that now that I am not trying to control this situation, I feel like I am more in charge and less stressed out! I thoroughly enjoyed my workout today and tried some new ab moves that I saw in a fitness magazine. I even really enjoyed my healthy meals today and didn’t even WANT to eat mindlessly. I guess I really needed to let go to regain my control!
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