Sorry for being incommunicado for the past few days. Friday snuck away from me without being able to get a post in, and then, yesterday I didn’t make it into work. I stayed at the house taking care of my fiancee who seems to have (simply because the doctor refused to come out and say it specifically) that she has swine flu. Back in the saddle today though.
Things were fine until Sunday night when I was just getting around to having my paltry little snack and my fiancee started having chills and a severe headache. Up I jumped from my chair and off to the emergency room we flew. By the time all was said and done, it was close to midnight (they actually saw us in record time) and I needed some sustenance. Of course, I was extremely upset and worried because my fiancee has been having headaches now for about five months in a row. She’s already a two-time cancer survivor. The thought regularly enters your mind that it could be more than just a headache but something more sinister that’s behind it.
So, of course, my initial fall-back position and desires all crept back in, in a huge amount. We ended up at a hamburger joint open 24/7 — the worst place to go. I have some good news though. Rather than getting a double meat, bacon cheeseburger with cheese, I settled for a kid’s burger with meat and mustard, and a small french fry. It also included a small soft drink. It wasn’t good, but it was a hell of a lot better than what I would have done otherwise.
Then, yesterday I managed to make a lunch like I was supposed to do and didn’t eat my snack. By 6 p.m., I was ready to eat the dining room table. For various and sundry reasons, dinner didn’t come around until 8:30 p.m. Once again, because of the situation with everything going on, we ended up making a pizza in the oven. Yes, I ate half of it I wasn’t supposed to, but it sure tasted good — best thing I’ve had since my diet started!
Of course, I didn’t even tell you about Friday night. As a celebration to welcome my fiancee back from her traveling all week, we headed for one of the Italian restaurants in town. I decided to have spaghetti and meatballs. The portion wasn’t huge, but bigger than I was supposed to be eating. Of course, I ate it all — all of the pasta and the three large meatballs. Let me tell you though, I paid for it throughout the night and into the next day. I guess my body is beginning to adjust to more healthy eating with less fat and all of the other bad stuff, so much so, it revolted when I threw this stuff down my throat. That’s a positive though. I’m going to think twice before I do that again. It looks as though my body is beginning to make some positive adjustments.
However, I’m not sure if I undid some of the progress I’ve made over the past nearly three weeks now by splurging as much as I did from Friday-last night. I got back on the bandwagon again this morning and am having what I’m supposed to be although I got too busy to eat my snack this morning. Hopefully for dinner, everything will work out and there’ll be no further issues. I can’t succomb to the temptations and my past behaviors even though they’re staring me in the face!
I tell you though, it didn’t take long for all of that food to just pile up and take off — the pasta on Friday, the breakfast tacos on Saturday and Sunday, hamburger on Sunday and pizza on Monday. Wow! It’s amazing how it all adds up so quickly when you’re not paying attention to it all. I’m beginning to see how I was able to consume 3,800 calories/day without a problem. Crazy!
Well, here’s to better health, less anxiety and worry, and a better tomorrow!
Be well and eat healthy!
Robert M.
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