I spent a couple minutes in Wal-Mart this morning, so that I wouldn’t cross paths with Hubby (I still drove by him in the parking lot though), and the first thing I did when I walked into my condo was to hit it with Jillian! Woo! This #2 workout is still making me work! It’s not quite flooring me anymore, but I don’t think it will ever be “easy!”
I have to share this, because those of you who workout will understand: Planks are just about the most evil things in the world, and Jillian has planks for everything: Strength, Cardio & Abs!
The first plank move in this workout is called a Plank Jack. You go into plank position (a fully extended pushup), and from there you do jumping jacks on your toes, moving your legs out and then together. Out and then together. Woo, that burns!
The second plank move is called Plank Squats. You go into plank position, and then you hop both of your feet up toward your hands, and then back out to starting position. Fast. Over and over. Talk about intense!
And finally, there are Plank Twists. You go into plank position and then take one knee and cross it under your body to the opposite side, and then go back to starting position. Repeat with the other knee crossing to the other side of your body, and then go back to starting position. This specifically works your transverse abdominals…as well as everything else!
If there is a special level of hell for the obese: Those poor souls see Jillian Michaels with horns on, I guarantee it.
After that, I felt pretty good though, and I spent some time with my puppies! Aww…puppies!
I spent a LOT of time finishing up giving directions to my web designer to make sure that the site is ready for my big ad launch tomorrow. There are endless notes, and things to fix…and a bunch of new things to fix from when he fixed the other things. I love the guy, but learn how to spell, darlin!
I paid my phone bill, paid Jim (the guy I’m leasing my office room from), and (drum roll please………..) picked up my VERY OWN KEY! I have a key! To an OFFICE! A PROFESSIONAL OFFICE SPACE! Woo hoo! I’m so excited! I wish I could share this moment with Hubby. =) I would, if I thought he’d feel happy for me.
Oh, except for one thing…it wasn’t for the room that I thought I was getting…it’s for the tiny one that’s next to the big office. You know what? It didn’t even phase me, I just thought “We all start small. And I’m gonna grow into the bigger space! I’m still going to succeed!”
I have a floor plan drawn up of exactly how I’m going to use the space and everything. I’m writing up a pack list as we speak. I have a lot of things to move! Yes, I’m disappointed, but it was a totally honest mistake on Jims part…he’s a nice guy, he just didn’t catch that I kept walking into the big space and talking about it, instead of the small space.
Well, it is what it is. Here I am using my magical abilities to accept the things I can not change, and to think that it’s all how it’s supposed to be. Who cares if that’s true or not; if I’m more serene about disappointment, what the hell does it matter if it’s true or not? Giirrrlll!
Anyway…after paying for my phone bill, and giving Jim the down payment on the space, I figured out that I have exactly $11.54 in my personal/business accounts, combined! COMBINED! Holy cow….this ad had better work! All I need is One! Just ONE appointment in over the weekend will give me groceries and gas…that’s all I ask. Just one! Please!!!
Well, I did plenty of work today, I’ll tell you that. I spent over 5 hours rewriting my website, making it sharper, clearer, more polished…I even took a new picture of me, and I also took some other pictures for my website, as well as found some cool ones online. It’s all going to look a lot fresher, and more inviting now!
Oh, and I recorded my new phone message too. Now instead of hearing “Hi! It’s Jayson! Leeeaaavvee a message! BEEP!”, they get to hear my business name, and a very calm version of me telling them “Your table is all ready, just give me your name, a couple of times that will work for you, and the best number to call you! Thanks, and we’ll chat soon!”
Best friend Billy has been working on a show this week, and has been incommunicado (that’s French!); I miss him. He doesn’t even know that I haven’t been home all week. And he’s so busy, I don’t want to bother him with my drama. Well, here’s hoping that the drama is almost over, and maybe he’ll never have to know. Besides, I haven’t really “needed” him that much this week.
“You know, I think I learned something today“: (name the reference #1) I can get through tough spots without burdening others with my every trouble (except for you, my blog readers, lol). I mean that, once I tell a story once, and once I feel heard, I can let a lot of things go.
I don’t know if I was able to take this break from Hubby because I am stronger now, or if I grew stronger because I proved that I could take a break….I just know that I’m stronger now, and that’s a good thing. I don’t believe the negative things I once thought about myself, and I don’t need constant validation…I just need kindness from those who love me. “Is that so wrong?” (name the reference #2)
Well, after a full day of working on website stuff, and doing all these details, I cleaned up the mess I made in the condo, packed the rest of my food for the night (I ate to within 1 calorie under my goal today! Cool!), and got out of the condo before Hubby got home. I love him and I want to fix things…but a break is a break. There’s been no communication at all….a little strange.
I was very happy because I went over to another friends house…let’s call him Rattail. So, Rattail and I played Wii, and chatted about life. I ate my dinner over there, and we waited for Rattail’s husband to get home. (Who I hung out with a couple of nights ago) I was a little bit sad to hear that there is trouble in paradise for them…I know how yucky that feels. But I trust they’ll work it out.
In fact, I really got to thinking about how many people break up, and how that high statistic sucks hardcore! “Sad to be all alone in the world.” (name the reference #3)
I chatted with a good friend and ex boyfriend of mine today, let’s call him “Pookie.” What a great guy. I mean, he’s not perfect, but overall, he’s been giving me a lot of support, and listening to me. I feel so completely heard when he listens to me…now why couldn’t he do that when we were dating? Hehe…in any case, I need to be listened to, and I’m very grateful. (He also reads my blog, so I better stop inflating his ego now.)
I also spoke with my sister today….she’s a trip. She called me right after she got out of meditation class and then all of a sudden she started cussing out the meter maid for a ticket she got….it was loud, it was angry, I told her to breathe, she told me to stick it where the sun don’t shine….she’s in LA. Who can blame her? (I may have exaggerated this story just a little bit…but it’s still funny)
So now I’m about to crash one more night at my friends place. I was so busy today, I wasn’t able to do my half hour of cardio…so I will do an hour tomorrow. =) In fact, I’m kind of looking forward to it. I did think about going to Claremont tomorrow. That’s where I was raised, and I could go visit my parents for a few days if I don’t want to go see Hubby yet…it’s a thought. I could even take the dogs, because my parents have a backyard. My dogs like going there, and they get to be outside whenever they want…that’s a luxury for a condo dog!
On the other hand, my ad comes out tomorrow, and I want to be close by if people call for an appointment. We’re going into Valentines Day Weekend….I mean, come on! Busy time!
And speaking of Valentines Day: What’s going to happen when I see Hubby? Will he be kinder to me? What will we say? Will I want him? Will he want me? Can we turn this around? The answer of course is Yes. We can turn this around….I just hope that he’ll genuinely want to. If he puts in the effort, I want to move forward. If he doesn’t…I don’t know. “I can’t think about this right now…I can’t! I just can’t! I’ll think about it tomorrow.” (name the reference #4)
There’s still so much to do, so much to figure out, to say, to plan….a frequent client reward program for instance….but little details, little details….okay, I gotta rest now. My eyes are tired and achy…but you know, overall, I had a very productive day, and I’m proud of myself. Good job Jayson! =)
Did I mention that I’m also hired at another upscale spa? I know I did…that means that I am going to have a safety net if nobody calls about my ad….that means that I’ll be able to make money and continue to invest in my business until it kicks off! Sigghhhh….how do you sleep the night before giving birth to your baby? Well, I suppose I should try.
Goodnight for now.
Mwah!
Jayson!
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