MY GOAL FOR THE YEAR: Fit into this dress by December 31, 2009.
I have always been a size 2 girl – and damn proud of it. I was active, loved to workout, and have been a practicing vegetarian for as long as I can remember. Between studying for the LSAT, drinks with my girlfriends, and spending time with the love of my life, I went from a 2 to a size 8.
I got my stuff together to re-introduce the routines into my life that gave me a sexy body and kept it there. I lost a bunch of pounds (high 130’s to low 120’s) and now, I can fit into a size 6 which is still tight on top. My goal is not just to get back into a Size 2. I WANT TO CRUSH IT and get to a Size 0.
I’m all about the babysteps. I love to party but I don’t drink and eat like I used to, and I am trying to improve my sleep habits and such. I work out but now I’m trying to create a better routine and workout hard.
I am only 5′1 and some change (let’s say 5′2 and I am pear shaped. I need a low body weight, low body fat, and a lot of weight lifting to get back the body I had and want. I am not interested in quick fixes and short term changes — I never want to regain this weight again! I love the books Skinny Bitch, The Abs Diet, Eat This, Not That, and the Beck Diet. I focus on creating food and exercise routines and controlling grad school stress so I can reach my goals and have the model healthy lifestyle!
I would love to meet others who share my goals!
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I decided instead of posting with the date in the title, I am going to use “day” designations. I started using My Food Diary in April and went from 137 to 122 pounds. When I started teaching for the summer, I decided to track on paper but didn’t like it. I missed the charts and the convenience. So 20 days ago, I re-signed up for MFD. I love tracking my food and I have none of the hang-ups most people seem to develop: it’s fun for me, I’m honest, and I find it empowering. I am excited about using the “day” system – because one year from now, I would love to be a trim, tight 95 pounds.
I’m helping a friend prep wedding stuff and am studying for the LSAT later tonight – following a food plan didn’t really happen. I decided to focus on another self-regulatory action: drinking 16 oz. of water with every meal or snack. Basically, I couldn’t graze — if I snacked on almonds, I needed to have 16 oz of water before I ended up picking at the treats the girls brought to the wedding party. I feel like this will make me drink water with meals automatically and will satiate me in between.
I am nervous about fasting tomorrow. I think the “hyenas of doubt” as Cindy over at “The Next Hundred Pounds,” keep telling me I don’t have enough willpower or discipline. I know I will be uncomfortable — this is a religious fast and water isn’t allowed. As Dr. Beck says, “Hunger is never an emergency.” Other than the religious reasons for fasting, I want to use the fast as a way to reset my body. Allow it to “relax” from the constant processing of food. If I get my period though, I am not allowed to fast, so I will probably just limit my intake since it still captures the meaning of the practice for me: modesty, understanding what poor people go through because they don’t have access to food, building willpower and discipline.
I am sure you have noticed, I am obsessed with personal health blogs. I might be 122.2 pounds, but whether you are going from 140-120 or from 300-150, I think the struggles and problems are the same.
Today was a good day — I just feel cheerier and I made Curried Tomato soup — simple, filling, and comforting. I love sunshine days!
I ate under 1500 calories! For the rest of the month, I plan on eating only under 1545 including on my “cheat day.”
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