“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously
give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.”
a return to love – marianne williamson
Now that I am reaching “old crone” status, I am learning some things. Things that have taken me 54 years to finally figure out. There was a time when I might lament quite a bit of I was met with a series of similar difficult situations. I would wail “Why me?” or feel I was going through a streak of the most awful luck. Not anymore. Now, I sit back and ask myself “What am I supposed to be learning through all this that I have been missing?” I have learned that lessons will be repeated until they are understood. It’s best to learn your lessons quickly. Who wants to keep repeating a lesson? Especially, the difficult ones.
It seems of late that a lesson that I keep having to repeat is about owning my personal power. I keep being met with uncomfortable situations that force me to recognize property lines, and having to determine what problems belong to me, and what belongs to others. And mostly learning to say “no” to what I shouldn’t own, and keeping my hands off, so that others can learn the lessons being handed to them as well. It’s not easy to stand by and not ”rescue.” It isn’t always easy taking a firm stand and saying “no.” Regardless of how I may seem to my family and friends, I am really a huge softie inside. I am like a mother hen and everyone around me are my chicks. If I see someone in trouble, or having a difficult time, and I want to tuck them under my wing and make everything alright. I have learned that “fixing it” for everyone only tends to make people lazy at fixing their own problems. Hence, learning to recognize property lines has become important for me and for others. Having to own my power and having to ”power up” is often extremely difficult for me. It’s not unusual for me to own my power, and then go into my room and cry, just because I was forced into a position to do so. However, I am always pleasantly surprised at how quickly, and well, God works when I mind my own business and stop trying to fix everything.
Another “power lesson” that I am learning comes in the form of weight loss and exercise. I finally decided to take control of my life in those areas and to own my power. I am not powerless over food. I have say so over what size I will be. Being overweight is not my destiny unless I choose it. I do not. I have decided that I am strong within and now I will be strong without. My body will match my spirit. Some of the favorite mental mantras that my spirit communicates to this body while on the treadmill, or doing any other exercise routine, is: “You will obey me” or “You WILL line up with the image that I have for you.” It might sound a bit strange to you, but try it sometime. You will be amazed at how powerful it makes you feel.
Don’t just let life happen to you. Make life happen. Own your personal power.
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