I’ve always wanted to be a surfer girl.
I spent most of my childhood on a farm about 50km inland from the coast, but my family moved to the coast when I was 9, and I fell in love with the ocean. Ever since then I’ve been living in places where I could see the ocean everyday, and my last house I fell asleep most night listening to the waves break…*dreamy sigh*
Photo credit: Kathy Stanczak
So why have I never tried surfing, even though it’s fantastic exercise and I’m fairly certain I’ll love it? Because I’m scared.
Photo credit: Ryan Cardone/Tidalstock
Scared of what the skinny girls and guys might be thinking. Scared I won’t be strong enough to pop up. Scared of the bikinis. Scared of embarrassing myself. Scared of hurting myself or drowning.
Photo credit: Screenshots from GLTR
I know I’m romanticising the whole surfing experience, but I pine for it! I long to be able to do what they do. I want to race down the face of a wave and feel the power and thrill of it. I want to be able to surf when I travel to new places like Bali. I want an excuse to spend more time in the ocean.
Every spring I think right, this year I’ll get lessons! And I never follow through. I even got the details of a class last year and I never went along. I think its a bit of an unrealistic goal for this summer given that I’ve put back on all the weight I lost year *sigh*, and I can’t really afford to pay for lessons any more.
Also, do I just want to be one of those girls with all the associated thinness, bravery, style and sex appeal. Or if I really do just want to surf.
I wish I knew.
Photo credit: Kamera Kozo
—————-
Now playing: Cat Power – Cross Bones Style
via FoxyTunes
No comments:
Post a Comment